Saturday, May 9, 2009

Being a Mom

I've been thinking lately about Mother's Day and this crazy journey of being a Mom and what it means. People told me before I had children that it would completely change your life and I don't think that I ever truly understood that.

Don't get me wrong, I knew that my own Mom loved me more than anyone else in the world but I didn't fully comprehend what kind of love a mother has for her children until my own sweet babies were born.

I didn't understand that from the time they placed my newborn son in my arms that from that moment on every decision I made for myself or my family, that I would always consider what was best for him. I didnt' understand that from that moment on every pain or tear or disapointment he felt in his life I felt also magnified by 100. I spent hours, no days, holding him and rocking him and singing to him, and I still daydream about what he smelled like and felt like when he was a tiny newborn. From the second I met my newborn baby son, I was overwhelmed by my capacity to love another human being that much.

I spent the next 3 years falling more and more in love with my little man. Sure there were days when I was exhausted and he was cranky, but I didn't even remember or care to remember what my life was like before him. When I found out that I was expecting another little miracle, one of my first thoughts was how Noah would feel when he had to share his Mommy.

Then Lilly Grace came bounding into our world a month early and I fell in love all over again. I've heard people say that they wondered if they would love a second baby as much as the first and I found not only did I love her just as much, it made my love for Noah grow even more if that's possible. Because having her brought back all the memories of him as an infant. Then to see them together just amazes me of how blessed I am to have these two beautiful healthy babies.

Then I think about my friends who didn't know if they would be able to add to their families again and how this year has brought a lot of blessings into our lives and I'm thankful all over again that in his own time, God sends us what we need, even if we don't understand the road that took us there.

Then I think about all of the couples out there that aren't able to have kids and it breaks my heart for them to want something so much that comes so easily to some people and for others it's a road of hearbreak after heartbreak. I also wonder why on Earth some people throw away the gift of life when other people are so desperate to adopt a baby. It infuriates me to know that abortion takes place at all when I personally know many wonderful couples who would give any child a happy and healthy home.

So I suppose I could go on and on about my thoughts on motherhood but I guess I'll close by saying I wish all of you a Happy Mother's Day! Enjoy your day and spend plenty of time loving on your babies...I know that's my plan for the day


Heather said...

How sweet! Your a great Mom and you have such adorable babies. We are truly blessed.

Erica Simpson said...

Happy Mothers Day!

Carol said...

Loved this post. It made me cry...imagine that! :-) I'm so glad we get to raise our families together! You're a great mommy and I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day!

Brooke said...

Perfect words.

Shanna said...

Happy Mother's Day!!