Wednesday, March 27, 2013

My Beloved

Once upon a time I had maybe six regular readers who have all since become majorly disenchanted with my lack of updating this blog.  Forgive me.  I would promise to do better but that's probably um a LIE.  I will not even attempt to catch up on the family things...birthdays, Christmas, etc.  Just know it's been fun and it's been busy.  Busy being the operative word here.  But really in a household with three kids a dog, two cats, a husband and wife....well you get the picture.

One thing that you should probably know is that due to my lack of spare time I have enrolled full time in WKU to finish my degree.  Yes because I am crazy.  In all seriousness, it has haunted me for a long time that the chapter of my life then was left "unfinished".  Would I change a thing now?  NO.  Working as a hairdresser and then opening a photo studio allowed to me be a stay at home mom for 9 years.  I have been present for every important event of my kids lives and I wouldn't change a thing.  Looking back on Noah's toddlerhood, before we found out the severity of his health issues, if he hadn't been close to me, it's very possible he wouldn't be with me today.  And for that I am thankful.  For nine years my family has been commited to me staying home with the kids.  This entailed me doing the mom thing all day, while Trav was the engineer.  He came home at 4:30 at which time I turned parenting duties over to him and I either went to the salon or the studio.  It worked.  For a long time it worked.  But now 2/3's of my kids are in school and I feel pulled to BE HERE for them at night.  For suppers.  For baths.  For talks about their friends.  For questions.  I feel in every cell of my being they need me here.  Just as much as they needed me at home when they were babies.  So to make a short story longer, I am trying my best to finish my teaching degree.  The advent of technology is allowing me to do the bulk of my work at home via the internet and attend class on campus one full day a week. Yes it is hectic.  Yes I drink a lot of coffee.  But at the end of the day, I feel like it is the best for my family.  I love to do hair.  I love to be in the studio.  But the reality is that those are jobs that people depend on after THEY get off work and on Saturdays.  The other reality is that we are living in a fragile economy and I need some stability that doesn't require being self employed. 

Am I dead set on getting a full time job when I graduate?  Not sure.  At that time all of my littles will be in school.  So maybe.  But maybe I will sub.  I don't know what the future holds.  We shall see. 

1 comment:

Shanna said...

So glad that someone out there understands!!! I myself have started to college this semester and have thought myself rather crazy with kids, house and a husband to contend with, but as you said it was "unfinished business" that I wanted for myself! Good Luck!